My day started out with such promise. I woke up at 5:15 to meet my friend for an early morning workout and discuss some business. Then I got myself ready and my dog and I headed to work.
On the way to work I caught the reflection of the back of my head in a mirror and it was soul crushing. I know I’m going bald, but I didn’t realize it was as severe as it appeared today. When I’m doing my hair I literally take pictures of the back of my head to see if I got the combover right. So I know it’s happening, but I feel like the process sped up several years over the past 2 months. So that set me in a bit of a tailspin, but I kept on moving along with my day.
I got to my office earlier than normal with the hopes of having an amazingly productive day. I told myself I was going to make a shitload of sales calls and close several deals. But then I had to deal with a shipment that came in. I had to go through 500 packages of fucking fidget spinners to see how many were broken in transit from China. Yes, I’m selling fidget spinners as a new item and yes it saddens me I’ve stooped so low.
After finding 50 broken spinners out of 500, I realized the instructions on the back were written in fucking Turkish. Sometimes China is just gonna China you and that’s the way it is.
Once I finally got done with that time and energy drain I found out one of our warehouse employees incorrectly counted in several of our new items. So back to the warehouse I went to correct the issue. By the time I was done with all this menial bullshit it was 4 o’clock and I was pretty much over today. I felt defeated.
I felt myself wanting to freak out and take shit out on everyone around me. I started to obsess over why my shirt didn’t feel like it fit me the same way it did 2 weeks ago. I questioned my diet and told myself how shitty I looked. I wanted to fight with my business partner because he was taking longer than I felt he should have to get me some information I needed. Then I went back to worrying about how bald I’m getting again and prayed to the Gods of Propecia to start working soon. (more…)